Thursday, October 30, 2008


Saturday will be the funeral of my great- grandmother. She passed away rather unexpectedly two Mondays ago at the age of 95. Now, most people never really know their great grandmas and I am SO thankful that I am not part of the majority in this case. She was SO much to me. I have so many memories from my times with her. She would always tell me that I needed to marry rich to make sure I was well taken care of. She would call me and sing Happy Birthday...the WHOLE song, every year on my birthday. She lived in a trailer in Idaho until about 10 years ago. Every time we would go to visit her she would take us down to the senior center so she could brag about her grandchildren and great grandchildren. She moved in with us when I was in 9th grade and lived here for quite a few years. I will never forget the day I came home from school to find her in the bathtub. She had fallen in the morning and had been in there ALL day by herself cold and unable to get back up again. After I got her our of the bathtub she still found away to use humor in a very scary situation. I remember how she loved to go for car trips. We would drive until wee hours of the morning and Grandma would stay awake the whole time to make sure the driver was alert. She loved vanilla ice cream, she ate it EVERY night. She was one of the best seamstress' out there. She ALWAYS said I love you. She was such an amazing part of my life.
When we had to send her up to Alaska to live with my grandma (her daughter), I never imagined that it would be the last time I would see her. She was such a rock in my life and it is SO weird now that she is gone. There are way too many memories for me to put them all down here but I know that I will never allow myself to forget them. She was born the year the Titanic sank and she lived a very long and mostly happy life. She survived some very tough times and she always kept her humor. I will never forget how she would always say while driving past a graveyard..."People are just dying to get in there!!" Or how as she got older and her memory started to fade it became "the people are all dead in there." I will always think of her when I see McDonalds or a Diet Pepsi. I will remember how much she loved The Price is right. I will never forget the night when she was about 92, that my sister,myself and my niece watched Roman Holiday with her. She kicked her feet up on the couch and ate her popcorn and M&M's...I am so thankful to have known her and I will never forget the times we had.
I pray that my life will be as full as the one she lived. She impacted many lives and she was such a blessing to SO many. I pray that as I age, I will still have the sense of humor to make it through the tough times and the simpleness to enjoy the good times. May I always have a little piece of her to remind me there is so much to be thankful for and to always say I love you to those around me!

Monday, October 27, 2008

Oh life!!!!

First of all I have to say that it is FREEZING!! Saturday was so beautiful and then out of nowhere the snow started falling and the wind picked up to about 50mph. Got to love Minnesota.
So, today was the first day back to work now that I am a whole year older. I would say it went pretty well. There has been A LOT of stress at work lately and I feel like we are slowly working our way through some things. I love my co-workers and I love what I do (for now). That being said I have found these last few months to be pretty hard. They have brought out some sides of me, both good and bad, that I didn't know existed. There are a few new opportunities on the horizon and I am really praying and trusting that God will show me the correct path to choose. He has been SO faithful!
One thing one of my co-workers said the other day that I think I need to focus on right now is that there are too many things to be happy about in life, so don't focus on the bad all the time. I totally butchered that one but really it is true. Granted there are a lot of hurts and sadness in the world and I don't want to live in this little "Pleasantville" bubble. But, I think it is important to stop and smell the roses and thank God. Sorry, I just had to get that old-lady phrase in there. So, that being said...Here are a few things I am thankful for:
*Moments of peace and quiet
*Coffee in the morning
* That I have never known a day w/o being loved
*A dog that brightens my day...everyday!
* The abilities that he has given me to grow and learn and laugh
* The plans he has for me whatever they might be
*The patience he has given me to see what those plans are
* I am thankful for the struggles too, the fact that through them all...He teaches me.
Oh, there is SO much more. I pray that in some way will find a reason to laugh and a reason to give thanks.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Day one...well day two actually!

Well, yesterday was the day...or at least it was the start. I am now officially 25 and I am going to start it off on the right foot. At least I hope I am. I have been pondering life A LOT lately and I have decided that these last few years have been a pretty lame attempt at living. Now don't get me wrong, I am not down on myself and I do not think these last few years have been a complete waste nor do I claim not to have enjoyed them. God has been SO good to me and I am thankful for EVERY day that he has blessed me with.
Now, to preface things I would just like to warn all readers that at times during this blog I will:
A.) Sound like I have in fact been older than 25 for about 60 years. I tend to use phrases like "Good Grief" and "Holy Hannah". I may say things like "It's a horse a piece" or "It's neither here nor there". I just want to put that out there ASAP to clear up any confusion. Please feel free to ask if you are confused with the terminology.
B.) I think I am pretty funny. I am not one to brag, but I was indeed the funniest girl in the 7th grade at Hidden Oaks Middle School. I may try to portray my humor and I will give it my best shot but sometimes I am bad at translating from real life on to paper (or computer screen in this case)
C.) Even though English was always one of my stronger subjects, I will not pretend to still be at the level I once was. I will use run-on sentences and a few too many !!! and ... in my typing. I apologize right now if this gets on your nerves!!!
D.) I will not go into this year pretending to think that I am somehow after 25 years going to mold myself into the perfect person. I am only attempting to live my life more intentionally and to let you come along for the ride if you so choose.
At this point this entry is rather long and I am going to sign off for tonight. I can't wait to see where God takes me this year!